dica hcamots lufniap eht rof sknath :SP*

"I was animal, let my body have it all

let my body have it all

as a natural (death)

and there is love and there is hate

I look at myself and feel both ways

I look at myself and feel both ways

but not today, not today

I am a human, a human sacrifice

Spend all my time remembering why."

For the last few minutes I have been plodding through these lines (from Orient Is His Name's "For This I Was Born and For This I Have Come Into This World").

I think the second half of the first paragraph represents the human condition. There are peaks and there are the lowest of lows, but ultimately it all evens out to flat ground. And this is what we (I, at least) wither. So, my response tends to be the first part: entertain my body. Whether its through recreational drugs, reading, writing, watching TV, studying, or pontificating on why things are the way they are, this is "letting my animal body have it all".

The real quandary, though, may be found in the last two lines:

"I am a human sacrifice, a human sacrifice,

Spend all my time remembering why."

The above "strikes" me as what may be my correct purpose in life. Frankly, it sounds pretty boring. More importantly, it sounds profoundly saddening. Is it, though? Or is it profoundly joyous? I don't think it means I am to meditate or "metacognate"

or any of that stuff on the condition as/of a human sacrifice.

I don't know what it means. But I do fear that in one way or another it means losing everything and everyone. Again, I still don't know what it means, but I have already decided that whatever it does end up meaning, if He says "Go" then I will go.

*DISCLAIMER: I HAVE NO SPECIAL INSIGHT OR KNOWLEDGE ABOUT THE BAND MEANINGS OR LYRICS TO THIS SONG, OR EVEN IF THEY HAVE MEANING AT ALL. ALL THE ABOVE IS SIMPLY MY OWN THOUGHTS ON THE MATTER.